The Awaken Soul...

Hung over.

2011-06-28T11:09:00.000-07:00

Days are passing real fast, time seems to be the best healing for my wound in my heart. With all my friends, I'm able to keep myself from thinking back all the memories that I once had with her. Break ups are tough, but I cant afford to let one girl, affect my dreams... So I decided to just put aside all these shits and focus on my studies =] Gonna work my way to my dreams! Gonna live my life to the max from now on =]

Sleepless night...

2011-06-27T10:02:00.001-07:00

Now, after a sudden change, life seems harder already. Since the day you left me, I cant seem to sleep at all, all I can think about is only you... I tear up not just emotionally but physically. I miss all the times that we've shared, all the memories that we had.But all was concluded to one thing, I was only just a replacement for her ex.... Oh god! How I need you!!! I love her so much yet she could just leave me like this! I'm really down and depress. I want you back so badly! so close yet so far! during my darkest hours, all I need is just to talk to you and everything will just brighten up. but now, you're just a shadow in my memory... FUCK IT! I hate this! Its so hard just to move on! I miss you so much, I miss you!!! Why does it have to be this way?!

hmmmm.....

2011-06-25T02:51:00.000-07:00

Its kinda funny to think about it that I'll actually revisit my own old blog. Its been dead like almost a year! lol...

Well, life has been real wonderful to me, everything seems to be so perfect... I still remember on the tenth of april, the most wonderful thing had happened to me. The day where a new relationship has been born between two souls on this world. =] If you know me well, you'll know who I'm talking about =]. Everything about her is just perfect! The way she dress, the way she talk, the way she moves, the way she Love. I just cant seems to get enough of her, all I think about is only her. In the art I do, the music I composed, the everything that I do just reminds me of her. =] It only makes me wanna protect her, to provide her happiness, and nevertheless, to Love her unconditionally.

There are just no words to use to describe her, all I see its only the positive side of her even there's flaws. Cause its that flaws and perfectness make her different from others, make her so unique that no one else on earth could replace her. Yes, I Love her loads, more than anyone can imagine. There's only one word for her, undescribable =].

It all started from a simple text "hey"... and from there, miracle started to take place by its own. Then we started to talk on phone. How I miss those late night calls where we could easily talk till 4am =] Then wake up the next morning greeting each other with sweet and lovely mornings =]. I still remember how me and her are able to talk about almost anything everything. Sharing our secrets with each other and going through sad times together =]. Went to hike up youthpark almost everyday, then went to botanical garden to enjoy the natural environment, those beautiful flowers and water lilies =]. Those days are real awesome dont you think? =] How we love each other so much, need each other so much and even care about each other so much. From there, I knew, this is the girl that I' gonna marry and to spend the rest of my life with =]. If you are the one I'm talking about, I Love You babey =].

Well this is the most wonderful girl that I've ever met, ask me anything about her, and I just cant stop talking about her, adoring her, praising the beauty inside her =] And babey, if you're reading this, I still haven told you when was the time that I really fell deeply in love with you. Still remember the second time we went to the number 5? the top there? where I brought you to the secret place? It was that time, when you stood there at the highest rock while I was sitting, and I saw the kind of light, not the sun but you, shining in front of me, the time when you were enjoying the freedom at the top of the rock and looking at the beautiful view that we can see over there =] I still remember we spent our time there, listening to music, relaxing together over there, talking, joking and also spending our time there meaningfully. From there, I fell deeply in love with you and know that you're the one for me =]

Oh well, this is all I wanna talk about now, this is a place where I can recall all my memory and keep myself happy =] And thats how wonderful my life had turned to =]

Exam's over!!!

2010-03-10T05:02:00.000-08:00

Finally!!! after three days of suffering and stress, I'm finally free from the first term exam whee!!! sadly, still have spm coming!!! T.T
Now currently working real hard for my band, writing songs, practicing my guitar skills and many more... Bout my studies, not that good cause i wasted my whole form 4 getting myself into trouble and etc... So this year so gonna work like an ass in order to get myself back up... Well thats all i wanna post today...

Updates!!! haha...

2010-02-27T10:43:00.000-08:00

This blog can be considered as half dead blog lolz... well was too lazy to update it cause got nothing to post hehe...
so now ya gonna post something simple....

- formed a band called "unmistaken"
- did a recording for Past times and Tragedies (band name)
- went to golden sand beach hotel with P.T.A.T for a swim and to edit some songs.
- Officially a sound man for P.T.A.T
- too lazy to study!! haha...
- looking forward for the MGS private prom audition...
- looking for some events to allow my band to perform...

Ya, basically that's all i wanna say... gonna sleep now nitez...

Love this Song!!! xD

2010-01-25T00:50:00.001-08:00

COMPETENT!!! (T.T)

2010-01-15T23:58:00.000-08:00

After sending an email to PLANETSHAKERS College a few weeks ago, I finally receive respond from them and this is the email i received from them... T.T

Hi Dixon,

We have a Feb and July intake, You simply fill out an application form send it in and we conduct an interview. From there if you are wanting to do the Creative stream you will do an audition to confirm you are competent in this stream.

You can choose to do College and complete a certificate 4 in ministry at the same time or just do an internship. ( The difference being internship is 2 stream days a week + Sunday and College is 1 stream day and 2 lecture days a week + Sunday) Our international license to study with us for overseas students will begin in July. We do have also a special programs visa if you want to begin in February this year. Please check the website out for more details.

I hope this helps

God bless

Planetshakers College

ARGH!!! BORED!!!

2010-01-14T04:56:00.000-08:00

Well basically got nothing to post currently, so I'll just post some random stuff la haiz...

Today add maths tuition (headache)

Girls??? (leave it to God )

Guitar??? ( lazy to practice but still have to practice )

music??? ( life i guess??? nah... just joking xD )

Facebook??? ( starting to get bored over it )

Blog??? ( Wish i got something new to post about )

Now??? ( BORED LA!!! )

Form 5??? ( a happy and sad year )

I'm super BORED!!! xD

Gross...

2010-01-13T03:20:00.000-08:00

Today in school was rather gross to me than a typical schooling day... lolz... during the Bio period ( dislike period ), my teacher miss Loo had bought 2 goat's heart for us to do some experiment or something??

The class split into two groups which is boys one group and girls another group. It was rather "sexist" but who cares??? hehe... So each group was given a heart to be dissected to see how does the inside of a heart looks like... So the boys group started to dissect the goat's heart... During that time, DAMN my body was so paranoid and I was disgusted by the process of dissecting the heart...

After examining the heart, a boy named hamdi started to play with the heart as though as he's making our local indian food "ROTI CANAI" . So the whole class laughed at the ridiculous act of Hamdi...

Well gonna stop here cause out of ideas on what to post and am tired now lolz... *peace*

A touching story....

2010-01-12T06:59:00.000-08:00

My new year Resolution...

2010-01-11T23:58:00.000-08:00

Time passes by real fast and its not up to us whether we wanna stop or to reverse it... Now, as a last year student of secondary school, I began to think back of what have I achieved in the past few years and had come to a conclusion that I have wasted so much of my time on nonsense, pleasure, money and enjoyment...

So this year, I have come up with my own new year resolution to make an achievement on something that'll make me feel that I have make use of my secondary schooling time....

2010 resolution

*enhanced my guitar skill into a higher level*

*get a good result in spm*

*changed*

Wish me luck!!! =]

The Genesis....

2010-01-11T01:37:00.000-08:00

Hey guys... I'm back!!! =] well I'm gonna start blogging again cause I feel that I need a diary to let all my feelings out and to share my life changing testimony... ( If i have any?? ) xD we'll see hehe... God is truly amazing in his way and our way too... But the problem is sometimes, we're just so caught up by our own thing and had forgotten about HIM. As a christian, I believe that we have to really surrender our lives to GOD and let him manage our timetables, and if we do that, we can slowly see that everything is in control and nothing wrong is going on. Even if there are obstacles blocking our way, God will somehow bring us through it... agree??? x]

Sometimes situation can also be difficult and you felt that God is not helping you at all, or God doesn't love you, think again... Why God allow this to happen on you??? From my perspective, it is either God is trying to save you from the worst, or giving one test to make one a better person...

Well conclusion is, GOD is GOOD!!! lolz... that's all i can say hehe...

Guess I'll just stop here and wish that this blog will be updated frequently... *peace* x]